Dark and cold desert

I am 33 and I am still trying to find my way… I recently ended what seems the beginning of a holy relationship and now I am feeling extremely depressed. I want to keep trusting and I do know God is taking care of me but I don't know what iam doing wrong… what should I do? I don't have a clue what He wants from me? I feel contradictory wishes… I feel lost… I want so much to do something and I feel nothing… I want to be happy, to feel loved, to love and to feel joy in the place He wants me. I know that probably the best thing is to let Him do everything. I can only ask for prayers. God bless you and shower you with blessings.