4 Out of 5 Catholic Men Confess This Sin

They confess to looking at pornography and masturbating.

It’s awkward, I know, to say it so candidly, but the only way to defeat pornography in our lives is to admit that we have a widespread problem with it.

Vice, Firmly Entrenched

By the time I was in high school, the habit of lusting after women via pornography was firmly entrenched in my soul. I was an atheist at the time.

I recall listening to a popular late night radio show during these years, where the female host–allegedly a psychologist with a Ph.D.–counseled callers that looking at pornography and masturbating were good, healthy things for a young man to do. I knew I couldn’t resist the desire to look and lust on a frequent basis, so her words confirmed for me that what I was doing wasn’t something wrong.

Years passed, and I was in college, suffering from an anxiety disorder, panic attacks, and depression. I reached out to God for help, and over the course of many months He came into my life.

But I was still addicted to pornography.

While still an atheist, I remember sitting in an apartment with three Evangelical Protestant friends of mine, and they told me that looking at pornography was a sin. My response: I laughed at them. Yes, laughed.

I laughed because the thought of any man being able to overcome the desire for lust and pornography seemed ludicrous to me.

I told them that “every man does this and anyone who denies it is a liar.” While blunt, and not completely true, my words weren’t too far off the mark, even among Christians.

Jesus Pulled No Punches

A year or so later, God drew me out of atheism, and I became an Evangelical Protestant like my friends.

I was a newly minted Christian and didn’t want to believe that looking at pornography was wrong. But then I read Jesus’ words in St. Matthew’s gospel:

You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall not commit adultery.’ But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lust has already committed adultery with her in his heart. — Matt. 5:27-28

Ouch. I wanted there to be a way that His words could be interpreted to mean something different from what they seemed to be saying, but I couldn’t convince myself out of what I knew He must mean. Earlier in the same chapter, in the Beatitudes, Jesus said: “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.” I couldn’t claim to be pure in heart while lusting after women.

“But I can’t stop doing it. There’s no way,” I thought to myself.

I was a slave to this sin. And in John 8:34, Jesus spoke clearly about what that meant: “Very truly, I tell you, everyone who commits sin is a slave to sin.”

I didn’t want to be a slave, but a free man. I wanted to be set free to love by the Son, and Jesus promised that He would help. So began the long, incredibly difficult odyssey in my own life to conquer this vice.

I Started the Battle As a Protestant…

I had access to God via prayer, so I started praying for God’s grace to help me conquer porn compulsion. A little progress was made as the months passed.

To my surprise, when speaking in confidence to one of my Baptist friends about my struggle, he confided in me that he, too, struggled with it. So we began to be accountability partners with each other. That helped as well, especially since,as a Protestant, I did not have sacramental Confession.

I also started to become disciplined. I woke up early in the morning to pray and go to Bible studies with my fellow Protestant roommates. In this way and in others, I slowly grew in self-mastery.

Yet I still fell to the temptation to lust and look at pornography regularly. The desire to do it felt so incredibly strong. I realized that what took years to develop into a deeply rooted vice, would take years to uproot.

I was still a relatively new Christian, and I began to read about Catholicism, the Church Fathers, and listen to Scott Hahn talks. They led me to Catholicism, and a new chapter in my fight for purity.

…And Won the Battle As a Catholic

When I became Catholic, I was hopeful that pornography would be eradicated from my life instantly by Mass and Confession, a sacramental one-two punch.

Alas, that didn’t happen. And somewhere I read that “the sacraments are not magic.”

But I also read that, unlike what I was taught in Protestantism, I could truly cooperate with God’s grace. So I dove into the depths of Catholicism: the lives of the saints, Eucharistic adoration, daily Mass, volunteering and service, frequent Confession, regular novenas, confraternities and sacramentals–the whole gamut.

I wanted to avail myself of the fullness of the means of salvation and grace that our Lord imbued in His Church.

Along the way, I discovered, as a hidden treasure in a field, Pope St. John Paul II’s theology of the body. I began dating a faithful Catholic woman who introduced me to it. It was exhilarating to finally learn the purpose of my sexuality, to give myself and receive the gift of self from my future wife.

More years passed, but I was seeing real progress. I could almost feel myself growing in the virtue of purity, by God’s grace. There was no one day when I conquered pornography compulsion. I was on guard against the temptation at all times, even after living in freedom from it for a year.

By the end of the war, God had taught me many things, not the least of which was my total need for Him to rescue me from slavery to sin. Every Confession, every act of faith, every oblation and self-surrender to Him, brought me a little bit closer to the victory of love. But it took a long time.

“Help Your Brothers”

I am still on guard against temptation, but in truth I’ve tried to put the sin and guilt and shame out of my mind.

That is, until a few months ago. I felt God nudging me to do something to help my Catholic brothers in their fight. And I did what I usually do, ignored Him.

But the thoughts kept coming back, and then the opportunity presented itself to create a course to help men overcome addiction to lust.

I thought about what would have helped me during those long years of struggle. I called to mind every tool, weapon, tactic, and defense I found and marshaled in my struggle. And I distilled those down into a video course.

I didn’t know what to expect when I published the course. But a few men signed up right away. Then a few more men. Then about thirty men, and I started corresponding with them personally over email. Even the seasoned veterans who signed up told me that they learned new ideas from it that they didn’t know existed. One of them asked if he could show it to his King’s Men group at church, a group dedicated to helping men win freedom, and of course I said he could.

The course gives you the tools you need to win the fight against pornography compulsion. I include in it a Steps to Victory Checklist that lists every single thing that I and other men have done to grow strong in chastity. I also lay out a 17-Week Bootcamp program that incorporates all the resources I share in the videos into a step-by-step guide.

Freedom from sin is possible with God! And He has blessed us through His Church with innumerable means to grow in holiness and win this freedom. If you are struggling with pornography compulsion, take a new step today and sign up for my course.

Devin Rose is a Catholic author and lay apologist equipping Catholics to defend their faith, and helping Protestants fairly consider Catholicism’s claims. He blogs at St. Joseph’s Vanguard.

This article is reprinted with permission from our friends at The Catholic Gentleman.


Devin is the author of If Protestantism Is True and he blogs at St. Joseph’s Vanguard.

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  • Joseph

    There was a seminarian who was having difficulty with impure thoughts when he looked at women. One day, he asked his spiritual director when would he be free of temptations to impurity. The old priest replied, “About a week and a half after you are in the grave!” Ouch!

  • Chauffeur

    What my priest told me was that it’s “3 days in the grave – not 2, but 3.”

  • Great reply!

  • Polycarp13

    Ora et Laboria, going too the store, getting into and out ones vehicle, on and off the city bus, opening a door, cleaning up around ones place of residence. How many muscles does one use too do these things? One must also learn, what is temptation is, with ones self. Learning ones cultural background, let’s say is French, well, what is Ora et Laboria in French? Using ones muscles too work self in French?, and it wouldn’t hurt too learn some Latin also. Then their is inviting the Saint’s too work with ones self, BUT be forewarned, since their are 5-6000 or more Saint’s, they’ll work you ONLY IF you are serious about being a JUST Roman Catholic, and when they get done with you, you’ll be too tired too anything except sleep. Everyone should have a picture of our Lord or Our Lady, St. Joseph or the many Saint’s in ones place of residence. If you catch yourself doing something that you, yourself shouldn’t be doing, do NOT be afraid to smack yourself upside the head. Pain is a good motivator too aid in overcoming sin. I Started off with the St. Joseph Catechism, then a year or two later, St. Thomas Aquinas’s Summa Theologica. English, Latin, French, Italian, and in Spanish. 22 years later, and one sore head and back, still going one step at a time. Eventually I’ll get too where I need too go, God Willing.

  • Polycarp13

    After 22 years still read, recite, PRAY the Summa, along with the Rosary, and other prayers. It is WORK too do those things.

  • Bea

    I have to be honest and say I’m SO sick of men and their lack of self control. It is SO disgusting already. GROW UP.

  • Michael J. Lichens

    You clearly lack any form of empathy or kindness and need to not comment here.

  • pannw

    Goodness…do you not hear what he is saying and see that they ARE trying. They are bombarded at every turn with soft core pornographic imagery. I can’t watch a ball game with my teen son without women stripping off their shirts in Shaving commercials or too much info commercials about erections lasting 4 hours!!!! They are attacked when very young and impressionable. I read about the evil ones who use things that young pre-teen boys like, like Minecraft videos, that start off as regular videos and then turn into porn. Sex is a very powerful thing, and our hormones and brains change when viewing pornographic images, leading to something similar to addictions like drugs or alcohol. Rather than attacking our brothers, sons, fathers, we should be praying for their deliverance from this evil. And it is EVIL and very powerful. Be thankful you aren’t suffering it and stop criticizing those who are trying to overcome it. I thank God they are trying and pray for His deliverance for them.

    Deliver us, Lord, from every evil. Amen.

  • Ramm397

    I firmly agree. We need Strong Catholic Men. Role models and women to stop being Narcissistic and Selfish. The world and the Church are feminizing young men.

  • Bea

    Yes. Men without self control hurt their wives, or girlfriends, and even children, when they don’t have self-control. I know many men that destroyed their lives because of it and one is even in prison.

  • Tom Dundee

    Thanks for the article.

  • Bungo Baggins

    Maybe you should consider chucking the TV reception/cable. All we have is a TV and videos. I even edit some movies (you know, the movies that would otherwise be good but have 1-2 things inappropriate). For news, we go online, which is actually nicer since you don’t have to watch some talking Barbie who couldn’t decide to wear lip gloss or not. As for sports…. well, what’s more important?

  • Amelia Wreford

    Just because a man is looking at pornography doesn’t necessarily mean it is the wife’s fault. And even if there were problems in their relationship, the man still has the choice of whether he views pornography, or decides to be a man and actually address the issue with his wife.

  • Anon2659

    Nobody is suggesting that this is necessarily the wife’s fault, however we should not be so narrow-minded as to think that responsibility might not be shared. Unfortunately neither the author of the article nor most of the commentators address this critical aspect of the problem, thus doing a disservice to all involved.

  • Anonymous

    a reply to myself. i finally got to confession recently and received communion. looks like according to the priest it’s difficult to commit a mortal sin (but obviously some people do cross that line otherwise no one would be in hell) as, like i suspected, it’s not likely most people would meet the requirements for it to be truly a mortal sin. either way, i needed to go to confession though given it’s been a long time since my last confession and i never fully confessed at that time either so you might as well say this is my first legitimate confession. i was quite nervous going in as my heart was pounding quite a bit moments before i actually got in there but i kept it together as i wrote my sins down prior to going otherwise i would have likely choked and forgot some sins.

    it’s nice to have a clean start and know for certain i am forgiven. Thank God.