• chaco

    Been there, done that. I can intimately relate , right down to the being on a motorcycle when “It all came down”. I can only rely on details told by others because 3 days of my life are blocked out. I remember up until 3 minutes before the crash but the next thing I recall was laying in bed with 3 men in white coats looking down at me. Up until then, the meaning of life was; 1) God is the king of Joy  +  2) His is the gift of sharing  =  I will share in God’s joyful creation    Afterwards, I had this scenario strongly impressed on my consiousness; A feminine persona was defending me by emphatically saying/screaming; “He didn’t want to follow you - He thought you would be good for him ! ” [ Similarly, I am greatly moved each time I recall the story of a preist who was a "People pleaser" rather than telling his "Flock" what they NEEDED to know about God. After an accident while in a coma, he saw himself in front of a judge saying; "You have misled your flock and now must receive your just punishment." Realizing full well that he desrerved it, he then heard a feminine voice from the side saying; "But Son, if we give him more time & more graces, he could produce "Good Fruit'. In reply the Judge said; "You know he deserves to be punished - but because you have requested mercy for him, I will grant it".]  I now realize that just because something seems to bring Joy / pleasure / fun, it doesn’t  necessarily mean God wishes us to share in it. There is a LIER IN THE MIX trying to trick us with false promises.